Motivation and discipline is something that is a constant battle in my life. For the longest time, I was under the impression that they were mutually exclusive that every once in awhile interacted. I was incredibly wrong. From there, I thought that to get anywhere, you need motivation. Once again, I was wrong. Recently, I thought it was a 50-50 battle. As you can gather where this is going, I was wrong. So, what is the answer? Joke’s on us. There is no right answer. We’re all different. Although, the reason that I am writing this is more motivation than discipline as it came to me in the shower and I felt the need to put it down.
Anytime I talk to anyone in the military, you hear all sort of crazy things. I’ve heard some wild stories, but there is always a common theme with the majority, the military (whatever branch they took part of) taught them discipline. They learned to do what they have to do despite not wanting to do it. This is something our armed forces teaches everyone from start to finish. It is something that others who do not take part should envy including myself. The idea that they can set a list of activities (chores, etc) and do them in the allotted time is extremely impressive.
I look back to some of my old blog posts. I look back at my old Facebook messages (which I delete because they’re cringeworthy). I recall yesteryear and realize all the decisions I have made. Some were major. Some were small. The one thing I want to iterate is that I do not regret a single decision that I have made. All my decisions have equated to me being the person I am today and I am happy with who I am today. I do think I can do better. I also believe I could have done better. I like to think that is called growing up and being “mature.” That is another blog post for another time.
There are certain things that stand out to me in my timeline. These are what I consider to be the moments where one door closed and another opened. Without going into each and every situation, I think about the moments and how motivation and discipline were involved. I know discipline is something that I lacked. I focused more on motivation and I see that motivation was there, but it was temporary. It appeared in spurts and turned into discipline. I know this happened with Ms. Fromson’s biology class during my sophomore year of high school. Same thing with Professor Caffrey’s Contemporary East Asia course. Finally with Professor Holland-Minkley’s Service‐Learning Project Management. These are major moments where I thrived because I really depended on discipline of myself that started with motivation.
I wish I could have named more (and if I thought about it harder/longer, I’d be able to), but I’ve always reacted better to motivation. That’s how my experience lifting at the gym started and that wasn’t successful. I wanted to be “big” and used others as my motivation. The moment that was out of my life, the lifting stopped. In 2014, motivation wasn’t the reason I went back to the gym, but rather discipline. I said I was going to do it. I sure as hell was going to do it as I am only as good as my word. I am not saying that I am a gym god. I don’t have a six pack. I am not the strongest person at the gym. Nowhere near that. I said I’d go daily, but that is unreasonable especially since it isn’t my career or intentions. I am much stronger and much happier with what I have and continue to achieve to do. Lifting is just a minute example.
The odd thing about discipline and myself is that it hits me randomly. It usually goes hand-in-hand with motivation as it transcends, but lately, I’ve been in a funk. Just about anything I’ve done on the computer, it derived from my own discipline. That isn’t to take away from my Information Technology Leadership degree. In fact, it compliments the degree as the majority of what I learned was techniques and how to keep moving in the never ending road of technology. When it comes to learning programs, languages, or scripts, that is all me. What I have achieved with EDM Assassin and soon to be The EDM Family is solely on my own accord because of discipline. I can justify this anyway I want, but that’s how I view it.
Stepping away from what I have done personally, I want to get back to motivation vs. discipline. If you had to weigh it on a scale, you’re not going to get equal motivation to discipline. I tried to figure this out in the shower on the percentage. 90-10? 75-25? 60-40? I couldn’t figure it out until I started writing this. There is no specific percentage. I wish there was. It would make everything so much easier, but life is and isn’t that easy. I am an oddball. I like that term better than unique which isn’t as unique as you’d like to think when you realize everyone else is just as unique. Plus, oddball sounds a lot more jovial.
I have realized what I need to do to move forward. I need to channel my discipline. Normally, it starts from an idea or a thought process that motivates me, but I am not using it to my advantage. I read on Reddit: